Umbrellas and depression

I'm one of those people who love the rain. I mean it. I LOVE it.

My daughter and I love running through the puddles in the rain. Soaking wet and laughing like crazy people really must impress our new neighbors. Yesterday, for the first time in years, I remembered I had an umbrella in my car. It was pouring outside and I thought "hey, I got this".

When it first opened everything looked good. I was smiling at my fortunate find in my  vehicle. Then it happened.

First it popped open. Then it popped up and over like the wind caught it. You know what I mean right? That same thing happened to all of us in elementary school when we thought umbrellas were the best thing ever made. Anyway, it's metal pieces started popping off the umbrella and projecting themselves backwards, towards my face.  Little did I know that when I opened my driver door and pulled out my umbrella that I was soon to be in attacked by a suicide bomber.

I was not prepared for the shrapnel and most certainly wasn't prepared for ISIS attacking via umbrella.  I reacted like a ninja (flailing my hands about while screaming and trapped in my driver seat) and tossed that umbrella out the door. 

To my great sadness not one persons saw this. Not one. 

Sneaky umbrella attack. 

Fitbit. Love it or hate it?

I have finally given into the temptation of the trendy Fitbit.

There was three reasons for this:

1. One could always move more. How do you know what you've done if you can't track it.
2. I'm American. What American couldn't loose 10 pounds.
3. My husband.

Honestly my husband should have been reason number 1. He and I are highly competitive and now we can compete without being near each other.  So far Dave and I are tied at 1 win and 1 loss each. Unacceptable.

I picture my husband coming home late from work and walking in circles around our basement just to sneak in a couple more steps before the midnight finish line. That or attaching the Fitbit to my dog and letting him run around the backyard while playing fetch.  Yes, that thought went through my mind once or twice. I know my dog would be all too willing.

So far I love my Fitbit. It's been a fun way to motivate myself to move more without a temporary scale guilt trip.

If anyone out there wants a Fitbit bud just let me know. Competition is addictive, fun and gratifiying (when you win at least).

Kickboxing Kosama style

Today’s drill sergeant was Amy. She is awesome, motivating and hilarious. Nothing is a better fit when I’m a fish out of water who’s flipping, flailing and kicking about. 

 I was covered in sweat, gasping for air and trying very hard to still look cool as I realized that I could not in fact beat someone up. It would be way more effort and I just don’t have that kind of energy. 

Kickboxing with Kosama was a blast and it was a hard workout. Thanks Amy for such wonderful support and encouragement.  Also, Amy, I will never pick a fight with you. 

Rambling of a foster mom

Today I sit here unable to write exactly how insignificant I feel.

When you sign up to be a foster parent you're never given a handbook that explains that the only person who has rights is the parent.

I have watched a child cry in terror as their mother says she's coming to take them away. I have listened to parents tell their children that the animals are so sad that you're not here anymore that I'm going to have to give them away or put them down.

Everything protects the parent.

This adventure into foster care has shown me the the sink hole that is our foster system.

I wish people genuinely cared for the children and foster parents. I wish I could go outside and not worry about the bio parent showing up. I wish I could explain the process to the child and be open and honest about the parents progress.

Instead, everything is about secrets, misconceptions and lies from our state.

Do any other foster parents feel like this? Am I alone on this?